Valentine?

yesterday was valentine. i never have any valentine in my entire life. thinking back, i had a few girlfriends back then but our relationships start after february and end before february the next year. haa.. think of it i never had a relationship worth a year. the last relationship i had was just lasted 3 months. maybe the shortest. before that during form 4... maybe 6 months... cant remember anymore. hmm... i know im a big loser when it comes to 'love' thing. when i see some school girl holding school boy's hand (you can see it a lot here) i tell to myself.. naa.. they are just kids, they dont know anything about love... school love will never last forever, it just a beta version of real love.

i got a lot of friends who fall in love during their school year. but they married with a different guy after school. thats why i dont believe in school year love.

so i took one big step after i graduated from the japanese language school in my country. but it was a bad step. a big mistake. maybe i rushed it a little bit back then but im not the one that can be totally blame. naa.. i never want to talk about it anymore. i learn a lot from it. it even change my way of thinking about love. maybe before i think love is not that difficult but now for me its really complicated thing. and it became really complicated if its love with someone complicate. maybe love with a person is like that. its totally different than love with things you like like music or games.

i dunno when my love life will start again. actually im always ready for it. just this time ill be the want who wait. hunter's life is over..... so who's the one who will be my first valentine?